His plan is much better...

With all the dreams, hopes and feelings of love I have about being a mother there has been a few fears. When I left KY for Boston, I left with the intention that I would never come back. And until I found out this baby was coming, there was a piece of me that desperately wanted to leave again. I would be lying if I said I love it here, but I do love the people.

Little Piece of Boston, view from Charlestown

I think that was in Maine

Cape Cod & a great way to be sometimes

French Toast Baby after brunch at The Paramount w/ Anna in Boston Commons

Sailing off the harbor - beautiful

There is a fear of how much of myself I will lose. Will I still be fun? Will I lose the desire to be adventurous? Will Nick and I's relationship lack spark or passion? Will I still love shots of Patron (lol)? And then, I think, will I discover things about myself that I love even more than all the things about myself that I may lose when I become mother? I hope so.

I had a lot of regret about moving back home, but now I see the plan I had was not as good as the one God had for me.

She can open her eyes (so sweet)

26 weeks! 14 more weeks to go until I meet our little girl! And I am so not ready, I wonder if I will ever feel "ready" - don't be confused, I completely want to meet her just a little scared.

The Bump website says she is still the size of the eggplant, just around 2 lbs, but from here on out I know I am suppose to gain one pound a week. My fear of stretch marks is increasing! The big news for our sweet Lyla/Sophia is she opens her eyes this week!! I am so completely in love with this.

Work is super stressful & busy, and it has been harder for me to sleep so I will try to keep up on the blog the next two weeks...and I really need to figure out what big items we should pick out for her & register. I really need that Baby Bargains or consumer reports book!

Ouch!!

This morning I cut my finger with a steak knife trying to open a new package of toothbrushes...yes, I am a mess, clutz, etc. It hurt, bled a little & is now nicely wrapped with a Little Mermaid band-aid.

Danielle called me on my way to work & I told her what happened to my finger. She then told me how she accidentally cut Jaxon's finger when he was a baby. She was cutting his nails and a huge chunk came off the top! She was a crying mess and upset so she called in work for the whole day! She didn't want him to hate her....

I am terrified of cutting our little baby girl's nails. There is no doubt that I would cry as well, poor baby :( Oh, please only let me cut my own fingers!

He's the best

I came home from church yesterday & Nick had moved all the furniture out of the spare into our bedroom, the old furniture out of our bedroom & put together our little one's furniture! I was so happy, what a wonderful surprise! I love him so much, he always finds little ways to make me smile.

15 more weeks until I am back to being just one human

These are the final weeks of my second trimester & then if the rumors are true, back to misery in the third trimester. I don't believe it, I am staying positive that I will feel good in the third trimester. As long as I don't become a big fat cow....

I got this email today from babycenter.com - "Do you have your birth plan written? Are you all set for your maternity leave at work? What equipment do you have and what do you still need? The next three months will fly by, so it's never too early to be prepared" 

That would be a no on all of those - yikes!!!  I wasn't going to buy anything until after the showers in hopes that I get a lot of my big stuff (fingers crossed).

Baby is the size of an eggplant! I love eggplant & have one in the fridge - I will have Nick take a picture of my tummy this weekend.

I do feel like I am going to cry after reading all these blogs & postings about our baby at 25 weeks, I can't believe she is going to be here in 15 weeks & I am not going to be pregnant anymore. It's all so wonderful yet odd in some way. So what's going on with our new addition: Her breathing is approving this weekend, every week she has a stronger chance of survival if born prematurely, her nervous system will continue to develop and she is continue to add muscle and fat.

Brainiac!

So, between Lisa & Uncle John giving me DHA prenatal pills our little one is definitely going to be a smarty pants :) It's also suppose to help her sleep patterns, attention span, motor skills & eye-hand coordination (perfect since she is going to be a tennis star)! Nick & I laugh that our little Sophia/Lyla will be the middle child, like in Modern Family. Hey, a mom can dream right!! ;)

"DHA omega-3 is found throughout the body, but is most abundant in the brain, eyes and heart. In fact, DHA represents about 97% of all omega-3 fats in the brain and 93% of all omega-3 fats in the retina. It is important prenatally and postnatally for optimal infant brain, eye and nervous system development" from Life DHA website 

6 months preggers

I was standing kinda funny in this pic...I really need to start documenting this pregnancy better

With Christina (she is having me a shower) Nick & I love her very much :)

Baby Lanham, Yes, mommy was in a bar - but it was an outside bar & of course, I was not drinking anything but water. Love you ;)

Our little soccer player

Nick finally felt our little munchkin kick or push last night. We were watching the NBA Finals (Mavs won game 5, yay!) and he felt her kicking. So glad he is able to experience this too :) LOVE LOVE LOVE!

one of the bests

One of the best feelings is feeling our baby move around inside me. She brightens my day with her little movements. I love her so much!

Cankles - ahhhhhhh

The new body fear is cankles! Stretch marks still reign as the number one fear, clearly since they are gross & permanent - but cankles is new this week.

We have a local office blog & one of the guys once to track not my belly growth, but my cankle growth - hilarious. I really need to exercise more....Help!

23 weeks (before it's almost 24)

131 lbs, yep that is how much I weigh....tears! Boo hoo! All in all, I am happy because that means she is growing as she should, I have put on a little more weight than I should - I really need to exercise more.

She isn't much bigger than she was last week, but she is growing - we just don't have a new fruit her size :)  Her little face is fully formed, she will just add a little fat to it (hoping for a small head)! I am feeling her move more, well I think it's her movements. She can hear a lot right now too, so Kelso needs to chill out on the barking, Lyss on the screaming & crying and of course, no yelling from the adults. My body has been aching a lot more, Nick has been using my pregnancy pillow & I have been sticking to a regular size pillow. I am not ready to take on the body size pillow quite yet, he loves it though!

Still on the hunt for the bedding I want, I really want to do a blue/teal/light green shabby chic look - see pics below of adult sets - anyone know anyone who can make these?

Is that Grandma, nope it's Bridgette

After the car accident on Sunday, I think it's safe to say I will be the most cautious, crazy annoying driver on the planet. The thought of anything happening to our little beep is absolutely devasting, I already love her more than myself. I hope that my own anxiousness, fear & nerves didn't negatively affect her Sunday & Monday.

Baby Beep, we love you & our so so so happy you are doing great! xoxo

No pain no gain?

9:30-10pm: laying in bed, playing around on phone, read some scary stuff about Denver's airport
10pm: Fell asleep somewhere around this time
11:45pm: Got a text from Nicholas, ignored text (was too out of it)
11:50pm: Phone beeped again, reminding me I had a text
12am: Left to pick up Nicholas from a friend's house
3am: Woke up screaming, literally, from the pain in my right calf
3am-4am: No sleep
6:30am-7am: Pressed snooze several times, exhausted!

Preparing me for motherhood/lack of sleep?????

Ugly Truth

Some of my friends at work think I should write a book & title it something to the effect of - The Ugly Truth about Pregnancy.

One of my favorite parts of pregnancy (sarcasm) is when I sneeze or laugh hard pee comes out. The first time I did this I was working and yes, I shared the news. Not only am I fat but I now pee on myself & probably smell like pee. For example, Nick & I were sitting on the couch talking & I was cracking up & I got up, and there behold pee came out. Luckily for me & our unborn child, Nick thinks it is funny and is not completely repulsed by me and my inabilities to control my bladder.

Love & Marriage

Nick's dad, Terry said, "Oh, I thought the way you guys like to do things you would have gotten married before you got engaged." Too funny.

Nick proposed Saturday evening & I said yes (of course). The proposal wasn't necessarily what he had planned or some uber romantic proposal, but it was ours & what it means is that we are confirming our commitment to our family & children even more. It was super sweet though. I will add to the blog later the whole, long story.

 

Without a doubt, I am completely in love with him. I think I tell him a million times a day & kiss him a million more. Nick wants to secure a date & place (hopefully) within the next few months so we have a lot of work to do!